Live in the moment

Tears of relief have replaced tears of anguish tonight after many long days of waiting. We finally have some news. Very good news. The biopsy shows no cancer cells. The pathologist was pushed to look more closely when no initial cells were found and still found no trace of cancer. The neurosurgeon is confident in his sample. The sample is negative for fungus and they have already ruled out infection. So, what is it? Nobody knows. But we will take an "I don't know" over "cancer" any day.
Our oncologist is truly amazed. (She said so several times in our conversation.) She was sure they would find cancer and was feeling like she had almost made a mistake in ordering the biopsy because we lost precious treatment time.
Personally, I give credit to Brent for pushing for the biopsy. All along he just kept saying there had to be another explanation. While I was hopeful, I wasn't as confident. How grateful we are for divine guidance in wanting to be sure before pushing ahead with treatment. We both felt that despite what two separate boards of experts were telling us, we just had to know for sure.
Of course we feel an immense amount of relief but with a bit of reservation. The tumor board will continue to watch this closely over the next few months. An MRI is scheduled for 8 weeks. But for now, we are following Keith's lead and living in the moment. This is the best moment we've felt in a long time and it is filled with happiness and gratitude of the deepest kind.
I wish this was more eloquent and I could elaborate more, but we are celebrating tonight and I must get back to the party.

***Keith, by the way, is home and recovering. He's been feeling pretty crummy this week but perked up significantly today.  We can't stop squeezing him and just thinking about all the time we still get to spend with him. I know I'm biased but he truly is one amazing little soul with clearly more to do here on this earth.  I'm humbled to know him, much less be his mom.